Restless Day

Because of my father’s condition, my day is a restless day.  I can’t find even a minute to relax because I have my nephew and nieces to attend too.  My father still cannot walk, move and stand.  We have to carry him every time he wants to pee, eat and drink water.  Very tiring and takes a lot of patience.  I felt my patience is running out because my father is too demanding.  And when I will no come right away when he calls, he yells and even says bad words.  He doesn’t understand that I have kids to attend too plus him and I am doing it alone.  Sometimes I wish to be superwoman to carry it all by myself.   Lord gives me more strength, extend my patience and guide me so that I will be able to stay strong.  I wanted to give up but if this is the cross I have to carry I will accept it with all my heart.  I know you wont give me things that I cannot carry; I thank you Lord for this because this is a test of patience and the love I have for my father as well as to my family.

Though today is a restless day, I am glad and happy that I am able to manage it.  I wish to have a good night sleep tonight, as I do not have a good night sleep last night.  And that is because of my father’s condition.

Stow Away

49 years ago there was a man decided to leave their province to find a greener pasture and better life in the future.  He was 15 years old when he decided to go to the city far from their province.  Since he has no money because he is still young, he decided to stow away.  He hides inside the bus and ship until he reaches to the city he wanted to start his life.  So aggressive to go to the city and find his future.   Scared yes, but his determination and willingness to have a better life he overcomes it all.  He got a job in the factory and secretly practicing how to drive then apply for a new job as driver.  Indeed when you want changes in life and be a successful one in the field you want to be, you can do it and achieved it sooner.

This is what had happened to this man.  He got married, have his own family and a decent job.  He is a responsible father and a good husband to his wife.  Sad thing is that his wife passed away early.  He raised his kids alone and give them a decent life.   His children have grown, successful and married.  And this man happens to be my father and I am one of his proud daughters.  Though we argue a lot, my respect and love for him will always be there.